Won't You Dance with Me....?

"Behold You have come over the hills upon the mountain

To me, You will run. My Beloved, You've captured my heart

Won't You dance with me, Oh

Lover of my soul,

to the song of all songs?

With You, I will go You are my Love You are my Fair One

The winter has passed and the springtime has come

Won't You dance with me, Oh

Lover of my soul,

to the song of all songs?

Romance me, Oh 

Lover of my soul 

to the song of all songs."

Sleeping Beauty

The past three years have been a long journey of heartbreak and failures. I am ready to put them aside, let go and let God. 

I have attempted to find love on my own instead of basking in this time of singleness and letting God transform me into the woman he has destined me to become. How could I be a girlfriend, a wife, if God says I am not ready? That would be very stupid of me to find love on my own and attempt to make things happen on my own. This is possibly a reason why so many marriages end up in divorce or end up being horrible marriages because we as believers do not wait. We fail to go to sleep and let God create and form our future.

Im starting to see that the purpose for marriage isnt to fulfill your own needs or for you to be served. But instead, in a marriage, you are supposed to serve your spouse. You are supposed to love your spouse. And most importantly you are supposed to draw your spouse closer to God in the way you love, treat, and live. The type of love you find in a marriage that is of God is agape. This is the highest form of love presented in the bible. Agape is the type of love when one expresses the love of God to others. Agape is the love that gives them self for the sole purpose of benefiting others. How amazing would it be to experience this type of love from another human being? 

I want to be the kind of wife that diligently expresses this type of love towards others and specifically her husband. I am asking that God gives me this type of love and shows me how to expose agape love for those around me. I want him to begin preparing me for my husband. 

I am reminded that when you sleep, God does his best work. Look at the story of Adam and Eve. Adam was aware that he was in need of a partner after naming all of the animals. Can you imagine what would of happened if he had attempted to find his partner instead of letting God bring him his partner. God simply expressed to Adam his need and therefore Adam was aware of that need. When God created Eve, he did not just put on Earth, say some magic words and place her in Adam's presence. Instead, God had Adam GO TO SLEEP, and He brought Eve. He handcrafted Eve.......specifically for HIM. 

I have been aware of my desire and need for some time now and have tried to find my partner without letting God. So today, I am going to sleep. I know God is bringing my husband and creating him and I specifically for each other. I can not wait to wake up and see my husband standing above me ready to take his bride. I know he is coming for me and I am ready to wait. 

Until then, I will dwell and abide in the Lord and become all that he has intended me to become. For I belong to Him. 

Lord do you work! 

Okay.....off to slumber. :) 

Lord, YOU'VE GOT THE LOVE

Transformation of a Lifetime

Throughout life we have all faced challenges of acceptance, fears, and, insecurities. In order to override these, we have all attempted to self prescribe alternative methods to heal us from the pain that these bring to our life. Sometimes, we never come to the realization that the only one who could heal and restore our lives is our Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ.

At the age of 19, my world was shattered by the horrible actions of another human being, and the security I once had in myself was completely crushed. I felt the need to hide and struggled to piece back together my life......by myself. Little did I realize, God was there the WHOLE time urging me to fall into his arms and to allow him to piece together my broken life.

Moving to Mission Viejo was truly a blessing in disguise. I began attending Saddleback Church and was introduced to the one woman who would become Gods instrument in healing my broken heart. She brought me to CRAVE and my transformation began. Slowly, Jesus Christ began working on all the shattered pieces and healing my hurts.

Four years later, I am still in the process of healing. I still fall back into patterns and of course new trials and tribulations add to the mess in my life. But in the midst of it all, Jesus has led me to some amazing experiences on this journey called life. I am so grateful to have a father who loves me unconditionally and continues to push me to be all that he has created me to be.

This summer, I dedicate to Him. I mean, of course my entire life I dedicate to him, but this summer my desire is for Him to work on me. On getting in shape and preparing me for all he has to offer. I want to be the kind of woman whom lives with no fear....but rather lives in His perfect love.

I want to be the kind of woman that when I wake up in the morning, Satan screams.....CRAP.....she's up. I want to be a mover and a shaker....I want to be a woman on fire for Jesus Christ. I desire to be his hands and feet in the world and for him to not only transform me.....but use me as his tool out in the world.

So, my prayer is that I am able to step into the destiny God has prepared for me. I pray that he allows me to see my flaws and the areas of my life that need fixing. I pray he sheds light on the things which I need to change and I pray that he molds me. Father, mold me, prepare me......

Through this blog I will share my journey as I am transformed into the woman I am destined to be.

Thank you Jesus!

New Beginnings

Good Morning everyone!

I am at the Starbucks in San Marino and can't believe I have come this far since High School. I was just walking the halls at SMHS and it seems as if things haven't changed. The campus is still gorgeous, clean, and my favorite teachers are still teaching. But looking at myself I have changed tremendously since my high school days. I was also reminded of the many pep rallies and lectures on pursuing your dreams no matter what obstacle comes your way. I have those teachers and administrators to thank for establishing a sense of confidence and self assurance in who I was as a young girl. If it were not for them, I would not have been the dedicated and aggressive woman I am today. They taught me how to fight for success and to never give up. Those are the two main life lessons I walked away with from High School. 

In my fight to never give up I was given this opportunity to share my talent with those around me. I honestly can not wait for my single to be out. It has been a long process, but now I know what it truly means to never give up. 

In this blog I hope to be able to share my life with you. Successes, failures, stories, and the many adventures to come. I hope not only to be a successful entertainer but an entertainer who left her footprint on the world. 

I love and thank you all who have been a part of my life. You have all touched my life in some way and I hope to someday touch yours. 

THANK you THANK you!!

Also, be sure to "like" my fan page to keep up to date with performance dates, release dates, and also appearances! 

Hope to see you all very soon! 

Love,

Sarah